"We'll All Float On Okay"

6/7/11

That song got stuck in my head after dinner out tonight where it was playing.  Modest Mouse in Africa makes me feel better.  It’s funny how random songs have that power.  It is really hard to keep up with the dates around here.  If my lovely Mac didn’t tell me the date, I’d be completely lost. In some ways it’s hard to believe I’ve been here for a week and a half, and in some ways it feels like I’ve been here a lifetime.  Today was uneventful at the clinic, and I even woke up to my alarm this morning which is a first.  Even with Benadryl every night, I've been waking up tons and long before my alarm goes off.  I think it significantly helped my mood and my coping skills to sleep well. 

I did have a couple of downers this evening.  Dr. Alex is not coming back from Kampala until Thursday, which means my rides to the clinic will be hit or miss between now and then.  I might have to have some ‘online research’ days at home, which is fine by me, but I get the feeling I’ll just frantically check emails from home more than I’ll research.  Also, the caretaker of my guest house told me today that I have to move out of my current house into another one by tomorrow afternoon.  I’m bummed because I have to move, but she said that there were other girls at the next place, too.  Lucy has to move, too, which really sucks because she’s only here for one more week.  At least if we split up, we’ll meet more people.  I’ve just gotten used to this place!  I’m looking forward to hauling my massive suitcase across campus without the help of Dr. Alex and his car like I had last time.  With all of my big talk about not needing a man, I’ll gladly use one for heavy lifting any day.  Everyone here seems incredibly helpful, so maybe I’ll luck out and find a nice security guard who will take pity on me and help me with my ridiculously sized bags. 

On that note, I need to shower and finish packing some things.  Here’s my list for today.

I’m Thankful...

1. for spaghetti sauce and Oreos (not together).  I found both at a new grocery store further from me, but well worth the trip.  Comfort food=happiness, even if it is incredibly overpriced.
2. for dresses.  I put on the one dress I let myself take to Africa (praying it won’t get messed up) to feel like myself today, and it helped.  I also put on some make up, which made me feel normal, too.  I’m incredibly vain, and I’ll finally just own it. 
3. for small deeds of kindness.  I’ve been riding with Dr. Amir to the clinic this week, and he stops and offers rides to any woman he sees and can fit in his car.  He even tracked down a woman in the middle of nowhere who left her bag in his backseat.  I’ve forgotten how genuinely good people can be. 

Goodnight and much love!