My mom learned how to follow my blog. She's cute and I love her. Anyway, so last night, Kati sat at my desk and tried to talk me down off of my crazy wall about leaving. She laughed at me, and said "you realize you're complaining about being happy, right?" It's true. I am incredibly happy with my life right now. My family is close by for the first time in years, (knock on serious wood) they all seem happier than I can remember, I have fantastic friends of all kinds, a decent social life, great grades, pretty clothes, and work has been a lot less painful than usual these days. Again, KNOCK ON WOOD!!!! If my dad gets sick, I lose my job, and someone gets divorced tomorrow, that's going to suck. All of that is to say, I know it won't stay like this forever, and I'm heartbroken (although I should've guessed) that this trip came at a time when I have very few, if any, complaints. About 10 months ago, I never would have guessed things would look the way they do. I know I have to go, and I know I'd regret it forever if I didn't, and I've prayed for an opportunity like this one for a long time, and of course, I have to be the typical ingrate who says "why now?" Right now, two months seems like an eternity.
So anyway, here's my list.
5/19/11
I'm Thankful...
1. to have a time in my life where, for half a second, it's all okay. Thank you, God.
2. for people who are smarter than I am that are working on a vaccine for AIDS. I got to sit through a presentation today, and I felt way out of my league, but there's a lot of hope out there to knock out that crappy disease.
3. for pretty dresses. We all had our awkward ugly days, and sometimes I still feel like I'm in mine, but I have some great dresses that make me feel pretty, and that's a great feeling, vain as it is. I had a parent tell me one time that it's harder to be dragged down by the whole world if you know you look good. I like her style, and she's right.
4. for staying up late. Night shift comes tomorrow night, and while I hate the way I feel after a night shift, I like the excuse to stay up late the night before. Something about it feels great.
5. for crass and funny movies. Thanks, Ashley, for suggesting it!
I'll be up for awhile, but I'm going ahead and saying goodnight!
My mom is so impressed with your mom! And she also tends to you the "all by myself" in her proud voice when she gets the computer to do as she wants! Love you beautiful!
ReplyDeleteI heard that "Bridesmaids" was described as being the female version of "Hangover"...definitely!:)
ReplyDeleteI am so glad you are happy! Isn't it a good feeling? I am glad we are happy at the same time. Its much preferred over being miserable at the same time:)
ReplyDeleteI wish your mom would teach mine to use the internet...although she might turn into one of those crazy facebook stalking moms...
And just for the record - I don't think its coincidence or a bad thing that you have this opportunity when you're happy. This way you know you're going because you want to go and because its important - and not just because you're running away from crappiness...you know?